I didnt have an answer for him. I painfully wished I did, but I didnt. I just put my arms around him and held him as tight as I could. “I love you, I love you, I love you. Your flaws, your perfections, all of it. I love everything about you.” I tell him rocking him softly. “Its gonna be okay baby. It’s alright.” I wished Liam was here. Liam was better at this than me. I always had a way of screwing up and making him feel worse. I hated making him feel worse. ~Z
“I just.. I just want to be normal..” I say quietly. I knew I wasn’t going to ever get better. I was pretty much stuck like this. Since there are so much things to remind me how gross I was to myself then there was no escaping myself. ~N
“Good boy, relax and drift to sleep. Mummy won’t leave you, just relax.” I assure and hush. “Good boy, always such a...
I relaxed a bit when he started rubbing my tummy. “I love you too.” ~N